PLUM BLOSSOMS

The following prose poems are from my book PLUM BLOSSOMS, an 81 poem narrative about the peregrinations through Japan of the banished Zen monk Master Ko. I previously published ‘twentyone’ on August 18 of this year.


eighty

shuffling sand while tide ebbs or flows or somewhere in between, slack for the moment, then off again, as gulls scuffle over bits of this and that, drawing characters with a stick that like castles of sand wash away with coming waves, elegant lines without meaning, water cold and swirling, laughing, pants rolled, he has no destination but the crowing of roosters in the near distance

eightyone

empty head, open hands
doing what i must, making little fuss
i alone wrap the eloquent silence around me

Photograph by John Morgan, Walnut Creek, California. https://www.flickr.com/photos/24742305@N00/

INTERNMENT

The old motor home stood with hood propped open, rusted fender prominent, tires with but a vestige of tread, sidewalls cracked, appearing abandoned save for the two wooden stools, small table with tea service set upon its varnished surface. The woman, as slowly became apparent for, at first glance, he had mistaken her for a man, turned and rose in one graceful motion to face him.He bowed his head briefly in acknowledgement. The habit would not be broken; his grandparents, both born in Kyoto, had insisted.

The woman’s height and slender build, her short cropped greying hair, her dark eyes mirrored his own; but where his face was a flat plane with rounded cheek bones and jaw, hers was oval yet angular. His was bland and undistinguished; hers was predatory and insisting.

An alter ego, he thought, my doppelganger. My grandmother and her yokai. How odd.

“Hello,” she said.

“Hello.” He took a step forward. “I heard a shot. Two shots.”

The trace of a smile.

“Everything all right?”

“Yes.” She turned her head slightly, opened a hand to the table. “Would you care for a cup of tea?”

Yuki hesitated. He had heard loud reports that seemed very like rifle shots. This woman … an awkward moment. She must have seen him come up from the cabin. And made tea?

She arched eyebrows, an inquiry.

He nodded.

They sat together quietly. 

The cups, he noticed, were small well shaped inexpensive utensils that yet retained a charm, elegance even. He turned one in his hand.

“Suitable for … chanoya is the Japanese tea ceremony; integral,” he explained, “to our traditions.” He lowered his head, looked up, and said, “I have never been to Japan.”

“In Buenos Aires,” the woman replied, ” a small community of Japanese  adds a good deal of aesthetic panache to the drab character of Argentinians. My father sponsored a family. 1959, that was.” Her smile, just a slight lifting of her cheeks, a widening of her dark eyes, accompanied a memory. “I was ten years old and enchanted by the grace of these people.”

The green tea brought the earthy reminiscence of his grandparents sitting on tatami, legs dangling in the recess beneath the horigotatsu, the low table on which they ate their meals, always rice and vegetables, broccoli, cauliflower, cabbage, brussel sprouts, and pickles, the large white pickled radish named takuan after the zen man who made them for his wanderings.

“They were contained by their rituals.” Absently said, looking away, a copse of juniper giving way to the pinyon pine, that imperiled tree, enclosing the dirt roadway, the shade inviting, and beyond he knew was the high pasture where the sheep grazed, and then the granite uplifts, and jutting peaks  still snow patched.

His grandparents had emigrated to Canada in the 1920s, the sixth child, the fourth son, prospects dim. Farmers, they worked their way south from the Fraser valley to Bellingham. Not able to buy, they rented and saved; a produce stand became a store. His father and two aunts all worked and saved and educated themselves.

But 1941 changed all that.

Yuki sipped tea. Internment was not Auswitz. He had argued that point a score of times. Still …

She lifted the pot and poured. Swirls of steam rose from the half filled cup.

“I never left,” he said.

The candid admission surprised him. He exchanged looks with the woman. Lucia? Was her name Lucia? She had two sons: they farmed near Basin. His memories drawn out by an acceptance in her eyes.

At war’s end, his grandparents had moved to Ontario, just beyond the former exclusion zone. Raised there, Yukio had ventured as far as Corvallis, to Oregon State, for his education. Then returned to settle just east at desert’s edge, in Twin Falls. From there he had begun watering the seeming waste that had blossomed in green verdure.

“Those green crop circles, one after another seem aberrations,” she said, a slight, questioning tilt of head, ears without lobes, “caricatures, I think, artificial design.” A shrug. “Mal aconsejado, as we once so glibly labeled all false notions of our compatriots. Have you read Borges?” she asked.

He had not. He had not heard of the man.

She nodded slowly.

“But they feed millions,” he said, adamant. “Those ‘aberrations.’ They have transformed this entire crescent of desert.”

“Perhaps it were better off desert.” A slight lifting of her shoulders.

Uncommon, her way of speaking. Spanish her first language? But well educated.

“Our Pampas, now fenced and parceled. It, too, might have preferred to be left alone. Borges and his intellectual compatriots argued quite persuasively for modernization. Jorge Luis Borges. He has become the centerpiece of Argentinian literature.” A short laugh followed. “But I seem to have gotten some distance ahead of myself. Your passion for green circles—a product of your rigid rituals, perhaps— have led me astray.”

“Japanese would disagree with your ‘rigid’ I think. Traditional rituals are well rounded. It is modern Japan that remains all angles.”

‘You have given this some thought.”

“Long straight roads between here and Twin Falls.”

“And we would ride from dawn to dusk. The Pampas seemed never ending.”

“Not Basque then.”

A laugh.

“No. Gaucho, from Patagonia.”

“I am sorry.”

“Not at all. A common misconception. I take it  as a compliment. Not much to chose between Gaucho and Basque. I am morisco, a person of color, as were, as are, the Basque, and we, as were they,  were ostracized and often despised.”

Ga-u-chos,” attempting her pronunciation.Three syllables?”

A nod. “On the Pampas vowels are allowed to to roam free. Borges did not understand. Modernization, industrialization was our internment, we gauchos. Not as dramatically as were your grandparents, but interned all the same. Barbed wire and greed ended the free range of the Pampas, ended our way of life.”

“And you came here?”

“Ah, I was brought here. After an idyllic childhood on horseback,  with guitars and singing, dancing, growing as did the strength of our maté, chewing charqui, your jerky. eschewing vegetables as effeminate and beneath us, then the university and immersed in words, enchanted by poetry.” She paused, reflecting. “Then I married. My husband lived here. Here I came.”

“I have heard of your yerba maté. A store in Ontario sells it, where I buy my matcha, my green tea.”

“And does this store also stock the gourds and bombilla  used to prepare mate, the utensils now sold at exorbitant prices for such common implements?”

“I don’t think so. No gourds.”

“Our maté and your matcha make an interesting pair, both with their ceremonies, different yet not so different. Perhaps … ” She left her thought unfinished. A trace of her smile. “Our little rounded rituals. Very effective at melting the indifference or reticence of strangers.”

Between these two a silence then ensued. The heat of the day waned. To the west the crescent of what once was desert now pocked with the green inevitable circles of center pivot irrigation. Just to the north, Minidoka, and beyond, the moonscape of ancient lava flows.

He nodded at the propped hood. “Overheat?”

She followed his gaze. “No,” she said. “The report you heard … “

“Ah,” nodding.

“A recalcitrant spark plug escaping the confinement of a despotic old motor.”

“Yes. On the exhaust stroke, Newton’s third law. Of course. The plug had loosened and was ejected.” He sat forward. “I can fix that for you. A simple business. And then you can be on your way.”

She raised eyebrows. “And you, too, can be on your way. Things to do. People to see.”

“No, no, I didn’t mean … “

She laughed, her head tilting back, her tawny face embracing the startling white crescent of her teeth.

He dropped his head, and with a slow shake left and right, deplored his usual indiscretion.

“I am content here,” she said. “My sons will come.”

He stood and shoved hands into pockets, looking off across the valley.

Then, “Stop by sometime,” he began, “for … tea …  the cabin in the stand of juniper, just … ” hesitating, “Come for tea, you’d be welcome, if you wished to,” trailing off.

Tensions muddle our tenses. His grandmother’s phrase. Jisei wo magirasu.

And shimatta quickly thought but but bitten off, not said.

“Maté and matcha,” she said softly. “But perhaps without the ceremony.”

“Yes,” he said. “No ceremony. Just tea.”

“The post with the weathered boot upturned over its top.”

He nodded. “Just beyond the junipers.”

“I’d like that,” she said. “Just tea.”

PIGS ON ICE

William James wrote:

All action is a re-action upon the outer world. The current of life that runs in through our eyes and ears is meant to run  out at our hands, feet, or lips. The only use of the thoughts which it occasions while inside is to determine its direction to whichever of these organs shall, under the circumstances actually present, act in the way most propitious to our welfare.1 

How optimistic. ‘The only use of the thoughts …’ seems to have given ‘thoughts’ short shrift. Of course, the quote is out of context; and anyone who has read James knows he is never short on explication. Elsewhere I have argued that William’s ‘stream of consciousness’ is better described as scenes of a film badly edited, herky-jerky no less, and our subsequent actions, determined by thoughts, are akin to the antics of a pig on ice.

These actions of our hands, feet, and lips often lack the grace and agility or fluency that we would wish. Consider the man (or woman) late for the office. He gathers his keys, starts for the door, stops, considers the light on in the kitchen, turns, stops, turns back to the door, stops, drops his briefcase, goes halfway to the kitchen, utters a curse, stops, turns back to the briefcase, and out he goes, slamming the unfortunate door behind him.

The character in our little drama did not act in a way most propitious to his welfare.

A man I knew—quite an intelligent fellow, invented a better fence for table saws among other things, built and played classical guitar—once became infuriated by his inability to locate the TV guide. When at last he did find the errant guide, he nailed it to the wall above the television with a 16 penny nail.

In all fairness, James does go on to say:

Preferences [what we chose to do], the ends that we pursue, do not exist at all in the world of impressions we receive by way of our senses, but are set by our emotional and practical subjectivity altogether.

He goes on to posit our ‘fondnesses’ for considering moral values—this is good, this is bad; that is better, this worse—before we ultimately act with hand, or feet, or lips. But all these decisions need making, excepting of course ‘the hand in the fire’ type reflect action. And how do we decide? Our senses have provided us with data. Our brain has translated (some prefer  ‘filtered’ or other analogies), then considered options, then acted (to put it baldly). How many options need be considered? How many pros and cons get listed? When is enough enough? Then what? We decide.

Why is slapstick comedy inevitably funny? It is the human condition.

Climbing up Mt Hood’s Leuthold’s Couloir one cold winter’s day, a friend and I marveled at the firmness of the snow as we kicked the points of our crampons into the steepening slope. Overhead, clear crisp blue skies. Weather set. Until we topped out on a bench called the Queen’s Throne and discovered that a lenticular cloud had sneaked up behind us and we were about to be engulfed.

Swirling wind driving pellets of ice rendered eyes and ears rather useless. We stood on the summit, blind and deaf, with but a vague idea of our whereabouts. Two decisions were at hand. Which way down and who would lead. Down was anybody’s guess, but we had both been on Hood’s summit before and had skied below Crater Rock, the large plug in the summit crater’s cirque, many times. We thought the precipitous Steel Cliffs were to our right, and the standard route up the Hog’s Back was somewhere to our left.  After a round of rock, paper , scissors—which I won— I moved to my left ten yards or so to feel a little better about clearing the cliffs, then started down. I think we were roped. Often two climbers went unroped for if one fell they both fell with little or no recourse. This was the presumed fate of Mallory and Irvine on Everest in 1924.

As I stepped off I knew that if the slope before me was as hard as the couloir that we had climbed up, I was in for a ride. The gods were smiling as I plunged stepped down in knee deep wind drift. I managed to avoid the fumaroles and greeted the looming bulk of Crater Rock with raised axe.

The decision to step off (into the abyss? onto hard snow? ice? drift?) was made without ‘thinking,’ without ‘consideration.’ Under the conditions of swirling snow and ice, we both were operating instinctively, intuitively. The decision simply got made.

Stirling Moss, on everyone’s list of top Formula 1 drivers, has similar words to describe the decision he makes as he motors along at 120 miles per hour. Split second timing is needed to get the car exactly where it needs to be. He has no awareness of ‘making decisions.’ There simply is not time.

Moss’s physical equipment is demonstrably not normal. Like Joe Louis at his peak, when, he has said, he often found that he had hit a man before his brain had had time to note the opening, Moss has often braked, accelerated, or changed course before his brain could record the reason.2

Even when there is time to decide, to weigh the pros and cons, all considerations are merely foreplay. Ultimately we just decide. Obviously, if we are deciding who takes the garbage out we are talking about a different breed of dog.

Reducing a decision or an object or an abstract concept to constituent parts, I would argue, gives a false impression, and leads one to thinking, like James, in plurals which in turn fosters more decisions to be made, which leads to confusion and more difficulties than the original decision.

Reductionism is part and parcel of duality: Me and him, us and them, black and white, this and that. Western civilization is plagued with duality. We are bludgeoned with the notion at every turn. Schools teach it, religions insist on it, governments legislate it.

But the dancer and the dance are not two things.

Of course, James would label this business of decisions-just-happening some form of transcendentalism about which nothing can be known. Metaphysics does not lend itself to reduction because there are no parts. It is all or nothing. Or both. Or neither.

Did I hear William snort?

While it is true that metaphysics in general and enlightenment in particular cannot be described as one might describe something as abstract as a state of mind, the behavior of one who’s mindset if focused can be described.

John Jerome wrote a book on the subject titled The Sweet Spot In Time. Mainly about football and martial arts, the behavior experienced by himself, John Brodie, former quarterback for the San Francisco 49ers, and others has been experienced by any number of people in every walk of life.

One need not contemplate one’s navel for hours at a time. Merely do what you do. Carpenters, plumbers, readers, writers, firemen, farmers, perhaps even a politician or two have all experienced the feeling that what they were doing was ‘being done’ and time passed unnoticed. Musicians all know that nothing can be played or sung well if it requires thought or any other intellectualization. If you have to read the music, it is extremely difficult to play or sing well.

Inevitably, the dancer must become the dance; otherwise, one’s actions are merely awkward motions running out through are hands and feet and lips. Pigs on ice.

1 William James, The Will To Believe; Longmans, Green, and Company. New York, 1912. p114

2 Stirling Moss with Ken Purdy, All But My Life, Bantam Books, New York 1963. p26